Ours is not to reason why....

I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it.
Groucho Marx

Man does not control his own fate. The women in his life do that for him.
Groucho Marx


Marriage is a wonderful institution, but who wants to live in an institution?
Groucho Marx


Outside of a dog, a book is a man's best friend. Inside of a dog it's too dark to read.
Groucho Marx

A man's only as old as the woman he feels.
Groucho Marx

I have as much authority as the Pope, I just don't have as many people who believe it.
George Carlin

A prince never lacks legitimate reasons to break his promise.
Niccolo Machiavelli

A return to first principles in a republic is sometimes caused by the simple virtues of one man. His good example has such an influence that the good men strive to imitate him, and the wicked are ashamed to lead a life so contrary to his example.
Niccolo Machiavelli

A son can bear with equanimity the loss of his father, but the loss of his inheritance may drive him to despair.
Niccolo Machiavelli

A wise ruler ought never to keep faith when by doing so it would be against his interests.
Niccolo Machiavelli

Before all else, be armed.
Niccolo Machiavelli

Benefits should be conferred gradually; and in that way they will taste better.
Niccolo Machiavelli

Entrepreneurs are simply those who understand that there is little difference between obstacle and opportunity and are able to turn both to their advantage.
Niccolo Machiavelli

For among other evils caused by being disarmed, it renders you contemptible; which is one of those disgraceful things which a prince must guard against.
Niccolo Machiavelli

God is not willing to do everything, and thus take away our free will and that share of glory which belongs to us.
Niccolo Machiavelli

Hatred is gained as much by good works as by evil.
Niccolo Machiavelli

He who wishes to be obeyed must know how to command.
Niccolo Machiavelli

Hence it comes about that all armed Prophets have been victorious, and all unarmed Prophets have been destroyed.
Niccolo Machiavelli

I'm not interested in preserving the status quo; I want to overthrow it.
Niccolo Machiavelli

If an injury has to be done to a man it should be so severe that his vengeance need not be feared.
Niccolo Machiavelli

It is better to be feared than loved, if you cannot be both.
Niccolo Machiavelli

It is double pleasure to deceive the deceiver.
Niccolo Machiavelli

It is much more secure to be feared than to be loved.
Niccolo Machiavelli

It is necessary for him who lays out a state and arranges laws for it to presuppose that all men are evil and that they are always going to act according to the wickedness of their spirits whenever they have free scope.
Niccolo Machiavelli

It is not titles that honor men, but men that honor titles.
Niccolo Machiavelli

Men are so simple and so much inclined to obey immediate needs that a deceiver will never lack victims for his deceptions.
Niccolo Machiavelli

Men are so simple and yield so readily to the desires of the moment that he who will trick will always find another who will suffer to be tricked.
Niccolo Machiavelli

Men ought either to be indulged or utterly destroyed, for if you merely offend them they take vengeance, but if you injure them greatly they are unable to retaliate, so that the injury done to a man ought to be such that vengeance cannot be feared.
Niccolo Machiavelli

Men rise from one ambition to another: first, they seek to secure themselves against attack, and then they attack others.
Niccolo Machiavelli

Men should be either treated generously or destroyed, because they take revenge for slight injuries - for heavy ones they cannot.
Niccolo Machiavelli

Men shrink less from offending one who inspires love than one who inspires fear.
Niccolo Machiavelli

Nature that framed us of four elements, warring within our breasts for regiment, doth teach us all to have aspiring minds.
Niccolo Machiavelli

Never was anything great achieved without danger.
Niccolo Machiavelli

No enterprise is more likely to succeed than one concealed from the enemy until it is ripe for execution.
Niccolo Machiavelli

Of mankind we may say in general they are fickle, hypocritical, and greedy of gain.
Niccolo Machiavelli

One change always leaves the way open for the establishment of others.
Niccolo Machiavelli

One who deceives will always find those who allow themselves to be deceived.
Niccolo Machiavelli

Politics have no relation to morals.
Niccolo Machiavelli

Princes and governments are far more dangerous than other elements within society.
Niccolo Machiavelli

Severities should be dealt out all at once, so that their suddenness may give less offense; benefits ought to be handed ought drop by drop, so that they may be relished the more.
Niccolo Machiavelli

Since it is difficult to join them together, it is safer to be feared than to be loved when one of the two must be lacking.
Niccolo Machiavelli

Tardiness often robs us opportunity, and the dispatch of our forces.
Niccolo Machiavelli

The distinction between children and adults, while probably useful for some purposes, is at bottom a specious one, I feel. There are only individual egos, crazy for love.
Niccolo Machiavelli

The fact is that a man who wants to act virtuously in every way necessarily comes to grief among so many who are not virtuous.
Niccolo Machiavelli

The first method for estimating the intelligence of a ruler is to look at the men he has around him.
Niccolo Machiavelli

The main foundations of every state, new states as well as ancient or composite ones, are good laws and good arms you cannot have good laws without good arms, and where there are good arms, good laws inevitably follow.
Niccolo Machiavelli

The more sand has escaped from the hourglass of our life, the clearer we should see through it.
Niccolo Machiavelli

The new ruler must determine all the injuries that he will need to inflict. He must inflict them once and for all.
Niccolo Machiavelli

The one who adapts his policy to the times prospers, and likewise that the one whose policy clashes with the demands of the times does not.
Niccolo Machiavelli

The promise given was a necessity of the past: the word broken is a necessity of the present.
Niccolo Machiavelli

The question is, then, do we try to make things easy on ourselves or do we try to make things easy on our customers, whoever they may be?
Niccolo Machiavelli

The wise man does at once what the fool does finally.
Niccolo Machiavelli

The wish to acquire more is admittedly a very natural and common thing; and when men succeed in this they are always praised rather than condemned. But when they lack the ability to do so and yet want to acquire more at all costs, they deserve condemnation for their mistakes.
Niccolo Machiavelli

There are three kinds of intelligence: one kind understands things for itself, the other appreciates what others can understand, the third understands neither for itself nor through others. This first kind is excellent, the second good, and the third kind useless.
Niccolo Machiavelli

There is no avoiding war; it can only be postponed to the advantage of others.
Niccolo Machiavelli

There is no surer sign of decay in a country than to see the rites of religion held in contempt.
Niccolo Machiavelli

There is nothing more difficult to take in hand, more perilous to conduct, or more uncertain in its success, than to take the lead in the introduction of a new order of things.
Niccolo Machiavelli

To understand the nature of the people one must be a prince, and to understand the nature of the prince, one must be of the people.
Niccolo Machiavelli

War is just when it is necessary; arms are permissible when there is no hope except in arms.
Niccolo Machiavelli

War should be the only study of a prince. He should consider peace only as a breathing-time, which gives him leisure to contrive, and furnishes as ability to execute, military plans.
Niccolo Machiavelli

We cannot attribute to fortune or virtue that which is achieved without either.
Niccolo Machiavelli

When you disarm the people, you commence to offend them and show that you distrust them either through cowardice or lack of confidence, and both of these opinions generate hatred.
Niccolo Machiavelli

Where the willingness is great, the difficulties cannot be great.
Niccolo Machiavelli

Whoever conquers a free town and does not demolish it commits a great error and may expect to be ruined himself.
Niccolo Machiavelli

Whosoever desires constant success must change his conduct with the times.

Embrace the Shadows but hold onto the Light

Gailic

Barrog an Scath ach connigh oct go an Solas..(more or less)

Latin (more or less thanks to this wonderfull web site
http://www.translation-guide.com/free_online_translators.php?from=English&to=Latin

Complexo Umbra tamen habitum onto lux Lucis


Long time ago and very away i had a dream...i dont remeber much of it other then a woman...red head rather pretty...looked up at me and said Embrace the Shadows....but hold onto the Light. That phrase has bounced around my head ever since...Its mine and it may very well end up as a tattoo if i can find the correct gailic translation. Pretty groovy huh.

Also one of my favorite phrases..which is gonna become a tat as well something i made up when i was on swing shift..back when it was the shift to be


We will walk up to the gates of hell...kick them open...and force cell the devil....no fear...

OK so i found my old book of stuff ive written poems and the like. Now mind you this is pretty much all highschool and from when i was a winey snivviling spineless twit. So its sappy and depresseing LOL but i figure ill write some of em out anyway.

On the plane of happiness
the lovers doth lie
on the plane of sorrows
the lovers doth cry
on the plane of shadows
the killers doth stalk
on the plane of death
the killed doth walk
on the plane of light
god doth rule
on the plane of darkness
he is called a fool
on which plane
doth the dead live
on which plane
doth the dead give

No clue when i wrote the above LOL
**
I wrote this one while studying the holocost of WWII


I looked into the eyes of the astound
and watched as heaven came falling down
I watched as the wanderes fell
Falling through the fires of hell
As they fell they screamed in pain
they were myrdered tortured broken maimed
and when they hit it didnt matter
for when they hit their bodies shattered
now i sit in my formless shell
living out my private hell

**
Um.....i wrote this one my sophmore year when i got a letter from an old friend that had a quick poem on the envelope...didnt want to be outdone

In heavan souls drift
with peace on their minds
god smiles on
in hell souls drift
with one question
Why
the devil knows
but he just smiles on
**
No clue why i wrote it heh


On the immortal plane of time
your life is but a line
on the immortal plane of fear
your life is grim and drear
on the immortal plane of lite
your life is just and bright
onthe immortal plane of death
your life is just a breath
**
**snicker** i was at the sylven learning center for some reason and was told if i wrote a quick poem i could leave early...


If there was no evil
there would be no good
if one should die
the other would
for without evil
there is no good
**
18 and unrequited love


Her soul that burned
has lost its flame
her eyes that held love
do now hold blame
her love that did fly
has fallen and now dies
On a stage where i was once found napping
i sit and ponder the sound of one hand clapping
**
Same as above...remeber emo drama child..


Then
my eyes filled with love
my heart was filled wih fire
my lips were filled with passion
my soul was filled with desire
Now
my eyes are filled with tears
my heart s filled withrage
my lips are filled with scorn
my soul is filled with sorrow
wishing i was never born
**
Dont know who i fell in love with this time...

I look into your eyes and see their warm and kind
i look into your eyes and reach for your hand
i look into your eyes and see into your mind
i look into your eyes and find the courage to stand
i look into your eyes and see that you are mine
i look into your eyes and know i will never fall
i look into your eyes as you break down my walls
**
Um...18 fell in love was waiting to pick her up at the greyhound bus stop coming back from el paso..

I love you
there is so much more to say
I love you
your pefect fo rme in every way
i love you
yet you are so far away
i love you
i cant wait till your home to stay
i love you
these words never seem enoug
i love you
yet they keep me sane when times are tough
i love you
those three words echo in my mind
i love you
i will be with you till the end of time
i love you
three words i long to hear
i love you
to reach out an draw you near
i love you
i hear those words from you and lose all fear
i love you
when it comes to you my mind is free and clear
i love you
your beauty is as pure as a rose
i love you
but alas i bring this poem to a close
i love you
**
I remeber writing this one after reading the green lanter oath
In brightest day, in blackest night,

No evil shall escape my sight

Let those who worship evil's might,

Beware my power...Green Lantern's light

A starfilled sky
a bright moon night
no evil can escape his might
as he changes wrong to right
prepearing us for our final flight
giving us his grace tonight
**
Once again emo moment...i have alot of those

the rage that once burned
is now dwindling
my life once whole
is smashed to kindling
brief happiness turned to sorrow
mine eyes now look towards tomorrow
my tears that were held spilled
the soul has a hole that longs to be filled
my pain that threatened to tear me apart
has dulled into an ache in my heart
**
Lust...pure and simple...

your glance can freeze me in my tracks
your touch if i was dead would bring me back
your beauty is enough to cause a heart attack
for your smile i would travel to hell and back
**
Um...long distance romance of some sort...

Even though we are far apart
there is a tie that binds us heart to heart
one will catch if the other fell
when we come together
only time will tell
**
Heard a groovy line in a movie....the last line in the poem..and workd it from there..

the look in your eyes
makes my heart soar
the touch of your hand
makes my body roar
my love for you is unshrinkable (should edit to unsinkable but staying original for now)
i want to love you forever
because the alternative is unthinkable
**
Emo moment...

where is the glory i was to find
i say i think there i am
and hear it repeated back to me
only to realize it is the echo of my mind

when does lonelyness end and relationship start
i say i love you
And hear it repeated back to me
only to realize it is the echo of my heart

Who is going to make my spirit whole
i say i am free
and hear it repeated back to me
only to realize it is the echo of my soul

How can i go on with this constant strife
I say i want to live
and hear it repeated back to me
only to realize it is the echo of my life
**

Ok this is a big one i thought this was one of my life turning poems...lol i was 18...cut me some slack. I havent read this one in a LONG ass time...after reading it i have to say it can still apply to me at this time. I rember wrigting this one while working at bennigans. i dont know what kicked it off..but i literally wrote it while waiting tables. LOL I remeber when i was getting to the end of it i completly ignored my table and they walked out on me without paying. But i didnt care cause i was "inspired" After writing it i remeber thinking i want this read at my wake/funeral....i think i still do...

As i sit and ponder here
parts of my life are almot clear
to my regrets these arnt idle thoughts
but a serious contemplation of what life has brought
i have realized i've loved and lost
made descisions and regreted the cost
sometimes i wish my life could start anew
and live by the adage to thine own self be true
it sometimes seems the last thing i shall see
is myself being true to me
so i sit here thinking about my past
knowing my future will be upon me fast
wondering what tomorrow will bring
knowing i must me ready for anything
i sometimes drive myself crazy with worry
trying to live my life in a hurry
and as the future draws near
i can help but feel some fear
will i triumph or will i fail
Will i ride the stairway to heaven or the esculater to hell
will i have an impact in life
or dissapear in a cloud of doubt and strife
ive told myself to stop being a cynic
to look at life and find the good in it
so i will lead my life the best that i can
never will i bow forever will i stand
try and do things right and just
find the courage to love and trust
ill take what life gives me with a grin and a smile
ill find a reason to walk that extra mile
in my life ive loved and fought
made some descisions while void of thought
i feel guilt of things not done right
and theye given me no few sleepless nights
but alas what ive done i cant undo
and i truely regret the hurt ive brought those few
and when the end comes and an aggreable age
ill take my bows and leave the stage
to a standing ovation the curtain will fall
and ill goto my rest bringing a smile to all
and if not i want one thing
my friends and family i want happiness to bring
for without their love i wouldnt of made it
with patience and understanding my life they saved it
and my last words though the phrase is small
the emotion is uncontainable my friends my family
I love you all.
**
EmO....

in the echo of his silence...her voice did call
in the echo of his heart..her love did scar
in the echo of his mind..her betrayal did sour
in the echo of his memories..her face did haunt
in the acho of his soul...her name did call
in the echo of her kis...his lips did burn
in the echo of her touch..his body did quake
in the echo of her promise...his life did crumble.
**
Emo.....

a heart of ice did melt
feelings forgot where felt
love once dead did blossem again
a hope once ended did begin
but trust did become twisted
a heartache to one was gifted
ripped cruely from his chest
the heart that lived now rests
once feelings that were nice
has caused the heart to become ice
**
One of those life pondering "turning point" poems..

He lifts his gaze to the sky
i did wha ti thougt right
he wonders why he even tries
i did what i thought right
he sighs as no answer comes back
i did what i thought right
he closes his eyes and tries to bring his mind on track
i did what i thought right
looking over the top of walls he built
i did what i thought right
he still cant help but feel the guilt
i did what i thought right
he remebers promises broken
i did what i thought right
he recalls with pain harsh words spoken
i did what i thought right
he shrugs his shoulders and lifts his head
i did what i thought right
he chuckles softly at least im not dead
**
Emo bored...

there is no hope for the hopless
no prayer for the dying
no rest for the wicked
no goal for the trying
there is everything to fear
the good guys dont always win
there is no happily ever after
patience is not a virtue
nothe comes to he who waits
not enough people to love to many to hate
life will become a lesson in brutality
this may very well become reality
**
Wrote this one after reading the Crow Graphic novel in my car on a dark and stormy night (no lies) while working as a security officer in scotsdale

My valentine has hollow eyes
and a heart that is full of lies
she says she will never let me go
but where she is i do not know
she said she will never leave me
but she is no where i can see
she said we will love forever
but we are never together
she says i must be brave
but here i stand looking at her grave
i hear her voice echo in my head
but how can tha tbe...she is dead
my valentine has hollow eyes....
**
Wrote this one at the employee orentation for First USA credit card company...bored and had Moon Over Bourban street stuck in my head


Ive allies in heaven
ive commerads in hell
ive seen the sins seven
ive watched as angels fell
the brim of my hat
hides the eyes of a beast ( this line and the one above it stolen from Moon over Bourban street by Sting)
im as swift as a cat
stalking its feast
ive danced with the devil
ive walked with god
im the original rebel
walked where fools never trod
im the first and the last
im the right and the wrong
im the future and the past
im the weak and the strong
im there for your first breath
im the last thing you see
i stand beside death
for eternity you will remeber me
**
Um...emo...

never look into my eyes
i dont want you to know
i cant let you see me cry
i must go on with the show
i cant let you see the fear
i cant let you see my heart
i cant keep my mind clear
i dont know where to start
i cant admit im lost
i must go on with my tasks
i will prevail regardless the cost
i will hide myself behind my masks
byt when will i see
how will i find
the face that is truely me
the mask that is really mine
**

So there they are...not all of em some are really very stupid and some are just poems i wrote about RP characters and other silly things. Man was i emo before emo was found LOL. On a silly note i picked up the complete thin man series. A group of 6 movies done in the 1930's 1940's. I watched the first one FREAKING FUNNY!!! I also want to pick up the compulation of Charly Chan movies...and i probably will next pay day. Good stuff used to sit around and watch em with my dad on satruday afternoons. Number one son LOL!!!

'Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe:
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.

"Beware the Jabberwock, my son!
The jaws that bite, the claws that catch!
Beware the Jubjub bird, and shun
The frumious Bandersnatch!"

He took his vorpal sword in hand:
Long time the manxome foe he sought --
So rested he by the Tumtum tree,
And stood awhile in thought

And as in uffish thought he stood,
The Jabberwock, with eyes of flame,
Came whiffling through the tulgey wood,
And burbled as it came!

One, two! One, two! and through and through
The vorpal blade went snicker-snack!
He left it dead, and with its head
He went galumphing back.

"And hast thou slain the Jabberwock?
Come to my arms, my beamish boy!
O frabjous day! Callooh! Callay!"
He chortled in his joy.

'Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe:
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.


Believe

So after all those one night stands
You've ended up with heart in hand
A child alone
On your own
Retreating
Regretful for the things you're not
And all the things you haven't got
Without a home
A heart of stone
Lies bleeding

And for all the roads you followed
And for all you did not find
And for all the dreams you had to leave behind

I am the way
I am the light
I am the dark inside the night
I hear your hopes
I feel your dreams
And in the dark I hear your screams
Don't turn away
Just take my hand
And when you make your final stand
I'll be right there
I'll never leave


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> And all I ask of you
Believe
Your childhood eyes were so intense
While bartering your innocence
For bits of string
The grown-up wings
You needed

But when you had to add them up
You found that there were not enough
To get you in
Pay for sins repeated

And for all the years you borrowed
And for all the tears you hide
And for all the fears you had to keep inside

I am the way
I am the light
I am the dark inside the night
I hear your hopes
I feel your dreams
And in the dark
I hear your screams

Don't walk away
Just take my hand
And when you make your final stand
I'll be right there
I'll never leave
And all I ask of you is
[these lyrics are found on http://www.songlyrics.com]
Believe

I never wanted to know
Never wanted to see
I wasted my time
Till time wasted me
I never wanted to go
I always wanted to stay
'Cause the persons I am
Are the parts that I play
So I plot and I plan
And I hope and I scheme
To the lure of a night
Filled with unfinished dreams
And I'm holding on tight
To a world gone astray
As they charge me for years
I can no longer pay

I am the way
I am the light
I am the dark
Inside the night
I hear your hopes
I feel your dreams
And in the dark
I hear your screams
Don't turn away
Just take my hand
And when you make your final stand
I'll be right there
I'll never leave
And all I ask of you

Believe


Infinete Dreams *love this one turned it into an audition peace way back in the day*

Infinite dreams I can't deny them
Infinity is hard to comprehend
I couldn't hear those screams
Even in my wildest dreams

Suffocation waking in a sweat
Scared to fall asleep again
Incase the dream begins again
Someone chasing I cannot move
Standing rigid nightmare's statue
What a dream when will it end
And will I transcend?

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> Restless sleep the minds in turmoil
One nightmare ends another fertile
Getting to me so scared to sleep
But scared to wake now, in too deep

Even though its reached new heights
I rather like the restless nights
It makes me wonder it makes me think
There's more to this I'm on the brink
It's not the fear of what's beyond
It's just that I might not respond
I have an interest almost craving
But would I like to get too far in?

It can't be all coincidence
Too many things are evident
You tell me you're an unbeliever
Spiritualist? Well me I'm neither
But wouldn't you like to know
The truth
Of what's out there to have the proof
And find out just which side
You're on
Where would you end in Heaven or
In Hell?

Help me. Help me to find my true
Self without seeing the future
Save me, save me from torturing
Myself even within my dreams

There's got to be just more to it
Than this
Or tell me why do we exist
I'd like to think that when I die
I'd get a chance another time
And to return and live again
Reincarnate, play the game
Again and again and again


Gunga Din
Tho' I've belted you and flayed you,
By the livin' Gawd that made you,
You're a better man than I am, Gunga Din!"


The next quote is from one of the most inspiring fictional characters i know...Steve Rodgers....AKA Captain America...my daughter asked me what i wanted to be when i grew up...i told her Captain America...

Ive always believed all you need is one man to make a diffrence. to stand up when others are told to sit dow. to speak loudly for those who have no voice...and to fight the good fight

Evil Overlord list
My Legions of Terror will have helmets with clear plexiglass visors, not face-concealing ones.

My ventilation ducts will be too small to crawl through.

My noble half-brother whose throne I usurped will be killed, not kept anonymously imprisoned in a forgotten cell of my dungeon.

Shooting is not too good for my enemies.

The artifact which is the source of my power will not be kept on the Mountain of Despair beyond the River of Fire guarded by the Dragons of Eternity. It will be in my safe-deposit box. The same applies to the object which is my one weakness.

I will not gloat over my enemies' predicament before killing them.

When I've captured my adversary and he says, "Look, before you kill me, will you at least tell me what this is all about?" I'll say, "No." and shoot him. No, on second thought I'll shoot him then say "No."

After I kidnap the beautiful princess, we will be married immediately in a quiet civil ceremony, not a lavish spectacle in three weeks' time during which the final phase of my plan will be carried out.

I will not include a self-destruct mechanism unless absolutely necessary. If it is necessary, it will not be a large red button labelled "Danger: Do Not Push". The big red button marked "Do Not Push" will instead trigger a spray of bullets on anyone stupid enough to disregard it. Similarly, the ON/OFF switch will not clearly be labelled as such.

I will not interrogate my enemies in the inner sanctum -- a small hotel well outside my borders will work just as well.

I will be secure in my superiority. Therefore, I will feel no need to prove it by leaving clues in the form of riddles or leaving my weaker enemies alive to show they pose no threat.

One of my advisors will be an average five-year-old child. Any flaws in my plan that he is able to spot will be corrected before implementation.

All slain enemies will be cremated, or at least have several rounds of ammunition emptied into them, not left for dead at the bottom of the cliff. The announcement of their deaths, as well as any accompanying celebration, will be deferred until after the aforementioned disposal.

The hero is not entitled to a last kiss, a last cigarette, or any other form of last request.

I will never employ any device with a digital countdown. If I find that such a device is absolutely unavoidable, I will set it to activate when the counter reaches 117 and the hero is just putting his plan into operation.

I will never utter the sentence "But before I kill you, there's just one thing I want to know."

When I employ people as advisors, I will occasionally listen to their advice.

I will not have a son. Although his laughably under-planned attempt to usurp power would easily fail, it would provide a fatal distraction at a crucial point in time.

I will not have a daughter. She would be as beautiful as she was evil, but one look at the hero's rugged countenance and she'd betray her own father.

Despite its proven stress-relieving effect, I will not indulge in maniacal laughter. When so occupied, it's too easy to miss unexpected developments that a more attentive individual could adjust to accordingly.

I will hire a talented fashion designer to create original uniforms for my Legions of Terror, as opposed to some cheap knock-offs that make them look like Nazi stormtroopers, Roman footsoldiers, or savage Mongol hordes. All were eventually defeated and I want my troops to have a more positive mind-set.

No matter how tempted I am with the prospect of unlimited power, I will not consume any energy field bigger than my head.

I will keep a special cache of low-tech weapons and train my troops in their use. That way -- even if the heroes manage to neutralize my power generator and/or render the standard-issue energy weapons useless -- my troops will not be overrun by a handful of savages armed with spears and rocks.

I will maintain a realistic assessment of my strengths and weaknesses. Even though this takes some of the fun out of the job, at least I will never utter the line "No, this cannot be! I AM INVINCIBLE!!!" (After that, death is usually instantaneous.)

No matter how well it would perform, I will never construct any sort of machinery which is completely indestructible except for one small and virtually inaccessible vulnerable spot.

No matter how attractive certain members of the rebellion are, there is probably someone just as attractive who is not desperate to kill me. Therefore, I will think twice before ordering a prisoner sent to my bedchamber.

I will never build only one of anything important. All important systems will have redundant control panels and power supplies. For the same reason I will always carry at least two fully loaded weapons at all times.

My pet monster will be kept in a secure cage from which it cannot escape and into which I could not accidentally stumble.

I will dress in bright and cheery colors, and so throw my enemies into confusion.

All bumbling conjurers, clumsy squires, no-talent bards, and cowardly thieves in the land will be preemptively put to death. My foes will surely give up and abandon their quest if they have no source of comic relief.

All naive, busty tavern wenches in my realm will be replaced with surly, world-weary waitresses who will provide no unexpected reinforcement and/or romantic subplot for the hero or his sidekick.

I will not fly into a rage and kill a messenger who brings me bad news just to illustrate how evil I really am. Good messengers are hard to come by.

I won't require high-ranking female members of my organization to wear a stainless-steel bustier. Morale is better with a more casual dress-code. Similarly, outfits made entirely from black leather will be reserved for formal occasions.

I will not turn into a snake. It never helps.

I will not grow a goatee. In the old days they made you look diabolic. Now they just make you look like a disaffected member of Generation X.

I will not imprison members of the same party in the same cell block, let alone the same cell. If they are important prisoners, I will keep the only key to the cell door on my person instead of handing out copies to every bottom-rung guard in the prison.

If my trusted lieutenant tells me my Legions of Terror are losing a battle, I will believe him. After all, he's my trusted lieutenant.

If an enemy I have just killed has a younger sibling or offspring anywhere, I will find them and have them killed immediately, instead of waiting for them to grow up harboring feelings of vengeance towards me in my old age.

If I absolutely must ride into battle, I will certainly not ride at the forefront of my Legions of Terror, nor will I seek out my opposite number among his army.

I will be neither chivalrous nor sporting. If I have an unstoppable superweapon, I will use it as early and as often as possible instead of keeping it in reserve.

Once my power is secure, I will destroy all those pesky time-travel devices.

When I capture the hero, I will make sure I also get his dog, monkey, ferret, or whatever sickeningly cute little animal capable of untying ropes and filching keys happens to follow him around.

I will maintain a healthy amount of skepticism when I capture the beautiful rebel and she claims she is attracted to my power and good looks and will gladly betray her companions if I just let her in on my plans.

I will only employ bounty hunters who work for money. Those who work for the pleasure of the hunt tend to do dumb things like even the odds to give the other guy a sporting chance.

I will make sure I have a clear understanding of who is responsible for what in my organization. For example, if my general screws up I will not draw my weapon, point it at him, say "And here is the price for failure," then suddenly turn and kill some random underling.

If an advisor says to me "My liege, he is but one man. What can one man possibly do?", I will reply "This." and kill the advisor.

If I learn that a callow youth has begun a quest to destroy me, I will slay him while he is still a callow youth instead of waiting for him to mature.

I will treat any beast which I control through magic or technology with respect and kindness. Thus if the control is ever broken, it will not immediately come after me for revenge.

If I learn the whereabouts of the one artifact which can destroy me, I will not send all my troops out to seize it. Instead I will send them out to seize something else and quietly put a Want-Ad in the local paper.

My main computers will have their own special operating system that will be completely incompatible with standard IBM and Macintosh powerbooks.

If one of my dungeon guards begins expressing concern over the conditions in the beautiful princess' cell, I will immediately transfer him to a less people-oriented position.

I will hire a team of board-certified architects and surveyors to examine my castle and inform me of any secret passages and abandoned tunnels that I might not know about.

If the beautiful princess that I capture says "I'll never marry you! Never, do you hear me, NEVER!!!", I will say "Oh well" and kill her.

I will not strike a bargain with a demonic being then attempt to double-cross it simply because I feel like being contrary.

The deformed mutants and odd-ball psychotics will have their place in my Legions of Terror. However before I send them out on important covert missions that require tact and subtlety, I will first see if there is anyone else equally qualified who would attract less attention.

My Legions of Terror will be trained in basic marksmanship. Any who cannot learn to hit a man-sized target at 10 meters will be used for target practice.

Before employing any captured artifacts or machinery, I will carefully read the owner's manual.

If it becomes necessary to escape, I will never stop to pose dramatically and toss off a one-liner.

I will never build a sentient computer smarter than I am.

My five-year-old child advisor will also be asked to decipher any code I am thinking of using. If he breaks the code in under 30 seconds, it will not be used. Note: this also applies to passwords.

If my advisors ask "Why are you risking everything on such a mad scheme?", I will not proceed until I have a response that satisfies them.

I will design fortress hallways with no alcoves or protruding structural supports which intruders could use for cover in a firefight.

Bulk trash will be disposed of in incinerators, not compactors. And they will be kept hot, with none of that nonsense about flames going through accessible tunnels at predictable intervals.

I will see a competent psychiatrist and get cured of all extremely unusual phobias and bizarre compulsive habits which could prove to be a disadvantage.

If I must have computer systems with publically available terminals, the maps they display of my complex will have a room clearly marked as the Main Control Room. That room will be the Execution Chamber. The actual main control room will be marked as Sewage Overflow Containment.

My security keypad will actually be a fingerprint scanner. Anyone who watches someone press a sequence of buttons or dusts the pad for fingerprints then subsequently tries to enter by repeating that sequence will trigger the alarm system.

No matter how many shorts we have in the system, my guards will be instructed to treat every surveillance camera malfunction as a full-scale emergency.

I will spare someone who saved my life sometime in the past. This is only reasonable as it encourages others to do so. However, the offer is good one time only. If they want me to spare them again, they'd better save my life again.

All midwives will be banned from the realm. All babies will be delivered at state-approved hospitals. Orphans will be placed in foster-homes, not abandoned in the woods to be raised by creatures of the wild.

When my guards split up to search for intruders, they will always travel in groups of at least two. They will be trained so that if one of them disappears mysteriously while on patrol, the other will immediately initiate an alert and call for backup, instead of quizzically peering around a corner.

If I decide to test a lieutenant's loyalty and see if he/she should be made a trusted lieutenant, I will have a crack squad of marksmen standing by in case the answer is no.

If all the heroes are standing together around a strange device and begin to taunt me, I will pull out a conventional weapon instead of using my unstoppable superweapon on them.

I will not agree to let the heroes go free if they win a rigged contest, even though my advisors assure me it is impossible for them to win.

When I create a multimedia presentation of my plan designed so that my five-year-old advisor can easily understand the details, I will not label the disk "Project Overlord" and leave it lying on top of my desk.

I will instruct my Legions of Terror to attack the hero en masse, instead of standing around waiting while members break off and attack one or two at a time.

If the hero runs up to my roof, I will not run up after him and struggle with him in an attempt to push him over the edge. I will also not engage him at the edge of a cliff. (In the middle of a rope-bridge over a river of molten lava is not even worth considering.)

If I have a fit of temporary insanity and decide to give the hero the chance to reject a job as my trusted lieutentant, I will retain enough sanity to wait until my current trusted lieutenant is out of earshot before making the offer.

I will not tell my Legions of Terror "And he must be taken alive!" The command will be "And try to take him alive if it is reasonably practical."

If my doomsday device happens to come with a reverse switch, as soon as it has been employed it will be melted down and made into limited-edition commemorative coins.

If my weakest troops fail to eliminate a hero, I will send out my best troops instead of wasting time with progressively stronger ones as he gets closer and closer to my fortress.

If I am fighting with the hero atop a moving platform, have disarmed him, and am about to finish him off and he glances behind me and drops flat, I too will drop flat instead of quizzically turning around to find out what he saw.

I will not shoot at any of my enemies if they are standing in front of the crucial support beam to a heavy, dangerous, unbalanced structure.

If I'm eating dinner with the hero, put poison in his goblet, then have to leave the table for any reason, I will order new drinks for both of us instead of trying to decide whether or not to switch with him.

I will not have captives of one sex guarded by members of the opposite sex.

I will not use any plan in which the final step is horribly complicated, e.g. "Align the 12 Stones of Power on the sacred altar then activate the medallion at the moment of total eclipse." Instead it will be more along the lines of "Push the button."

I will make sure that my doomsday device is up to code and properly grounded.

My vats of hazardous chemicals will be covered when not in use. Also, I will not construct walkways above them.

If a group of henchmen fail miserably at a task, I will not berate them for incompetence then send the same group out to try the task again.

After I captures the hero's superweapon, I will not immediately disband my legions and relax my guard because I believe whoever holds the weapon is unstoppable. After all, the hero held the weapon and I took it from him.

I will not design my Main Control Room so that every workstation is facing away from the door.

I will not ignore the messenger that stumbles in exhausted and obviously agitated until my personal grooming or current entertainment is finished. It might actually be important.

If I ever talk to the hero on the phone, I will not taunt him. Instead I will say this his dogged perseverance has given me new insight on the futility of my evil ways and that if he leaves me alone for a few months of quiet contemplation I will likely return to the path of righteousness. (Heroes are incredibly gullible in this regard.)

If I decide to hold a double execution of the hero and an underling who failed or betrayed me, I will see to it that the hero is scheduled to go first.

When arresting prisoners, my guards will not allow them to stop and grab a useless trinket of purely sentimental value.

My dungeon will have its own qualified medical staff complete with bodyguards. That way if a prisoner becomes sick and his cellmate tells the guard it's an emergency, the guard will fetch a trauma team instead of opening up the cell for a look.

My door mechanisms will be designed so that blasting the control panel on the outside seals the door and blasting the control panel on the inside opens the door, not vice versa.

My dungeon cells will not be furnished with objects that contain reflective surfaces or anything that can be unravelled.

If an attractive young couple enters my realm, I will carefully monitor their activities. If I find they are happy and affectionate, I will ignore them. However if circumstance have forced them together against their will and they spend all their time bickering and criticizing each other except during the intermittent occasions when they are saving each others' lives at which point there are hints of sexual tension, I will immediately order their execution.

Any data file of crucial importance will be padded to 1.45Mb in size.

Finally, to keep my subjects permanently locked in a mindless trance, I will provide each of them with free unlimited Internet access.

Im sure ill return with more..maybe ill dig up my old book of poems and type some out....

So my aunt sent me this ritual to do on the night of the full moon. Kinda like a stepping out of the old into the new type thing. Im gonna do it. Tuesday is my bday and to me its the start of a new year...cause well its another year of age so its like starting over. Should be interesting as ive not done something like this in a VERY long time.

The early evening of the Full Moon ( Before sunset):

1) Ask Kelly to take Alex out for a walk or somewhere out of the Apt, just for about 1/2 hr.
2) Set aside some brand new white clothes ( Underwear, socks, pants or shorts and a shirt or t-shirt.)and dress in OLD, UNWASHED clothes.
3) Strain the Basil and flower petals from the water. Take a cool shower, washing with Orange halves, as if they were soap. Before you step out of the shower, pour the water that the Basil & Flower petals were in, over yourself, head to feet. DO NOT use a towel to dry off. Simply "Air Dry".
4) Put on the new, white clothes. Place the old clothes you took off in a bag and take them with you. Do NOT speak at all once you leave the shower.
5) Go to your friend's backyard. ( Let her know before hand that you CANNOT SPEAK TO HER UNTIL AFTER YOUR CLEANSING) Take some salt, some rum, candy, Red wine and a white candle.
6) Light your white candle. If your friend will allow you to, burn your old clothes in a firepit, metal bucket, or just on the ground safely. If you can't set them on fire, just place them on the ground and pour the salt over them. Tell the Universe your old self is being discarded, and your new life is beginning. Ask your Ancestors for their protection and wisdom.
7) Place the candy ( Preferable black/red licorice) on the ground and say " Owner of the Roads, open my roads"
8) Pour out the rum onto the ground and say " Divine Tracker and Guide, set me in the right direction"
9) Pour some of the red wine on the ground, take a drink, then pour out the rest. Say " Mother of the Winds, help me to transform myself into a higher being. Bring me health, success and good fortune, that I may take care of myself and my family"
10) Say "I respect and thank my Higher Self"
11) If you were not able to burn the clothes, place them back into the bag you brought them in, and throw them into a garbage BEFORE you return home. Throw away the empty wine/rum bottles. Leave the candy on the ground. Blow out the candle and throw it away. Sleep in your whites ( At least the underwear and shirt). Don't put any other clothes on until the following morning. Then throw away those whites.( All of them) Don't speak to anyone until the following morning.

What you will have done is the first step in initiation for most of the mystic religions. Your life will slowly begin to change. It may seem chaotic or even catastrophic at first, but GO WITH IT! Be aware of those opportunities the Universe sends you now. It may take you in an entirely different direction, so don't be worried or hesitant. Each Full Moon, celebrate your growth in your new life, no matter what changes have come. Within one year, your transformation will be well underway and you will be walking your new path.


Scary? Yeah a bit heh but i feel its the right thing to do. Ill post again later in teh week and comment ; )

It's been a long time
And I don't think about the show no more
I wanna go home
I wanna go home

It's been a long time
And I don't think I like the road no more
I wanna go home
I wanna go home

Just relax and take the red one first
So you can go back to work
The band can go back to work

Just relax and take the red one first
So you can go back to work
The band can go back to work

I'm drivin all night
And I don't know where we were yesterday
Is it time to play
Which way is the stage

The crowd was on fire
And I don't recognize a single face
Oh by the way
Can we stay at your place

Just relax and take the red one first
So you can go back to work
The band can go back to work

Just relax and take the red one first
So you can go back to work
The band can go back to work

I'm outta my mind
And I don't care what the doctors say
I'm not okay
I'm not okay

It's been a long time
And I don't think you love me anymore
Pick up your phone
I wanna go home

Just relax an take the red one first
So you can go back to work
The band can go back to work

Just relax an take the red one first
So you can go back to work
The band can go back to work


This song touches me for some reason...i like it. Kinda how i feel at work most the time heh. I just wanna go home when i get there....think thats a problem? Heh.

"Frontline"

It's not like I'm walking alone into the valley of the shadow of death
Stand beside one another, 'cause it ain't over yet
I'd be willing to bet that if we don't back down
You and I will be the ones that are holding the Crown in the end
When it's over, we can say, "Well done"
But not yet, 'cause it's only begun
So, pick up, and follow me, we're the only ones
To fight this thing, until we've won
We drive on and don't look back
It doesn't mean we can't learn from our past
All the things that we mighta done wrong
We could've been doing this all along

Everybody, with your fists raised high
Let me hear your battle cry tonight
Stand beside, or step aside
We're on the frontline

And we'll be carrying on, until the day it doesn't matter anymore
Step aside, you forgot what this is for
We fight to live, we live to fight
And tonight, you'll hear my battle cry
We live our lives on the frontlines
We're not afraid of the fast times
These days have opened up my eyes
And now, I see where the threat lies

We've got to lead the way

More random lyrics...Pillar Frontline...its a Christian song but it is strong meaning for what I do...me and a few guys at work get pumped by this song...Think of it from the Brown point of view...more to come as the mood strikes me

This day fucking SUCKS just put a bullet in my head and put me out of my anger.

Current Mood: angry

You are The Fool

The Fool is the card of infinite possibilities. The bag on the staff indicates that he has all he need to do or be anything he wants, he has only to stop and unpack. He is on his way to a brand new beginning. But the card carries a little bark of warning as well. Stop daydreaming and fantasising and watch your step, lest you fall and end up looking the fool.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Ok so i made the mistake of saying i n eed the pain of a tattoo. Carefull what you ask for damn thing hasnt stopped hurting and its intense to the point i want to cry. Thats the last time i say something stupid like that. Mental note...small tatoo good....big tattoo BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD. WHy cant the gods listen to me when i say i need to win the lottery....sheesh selective hearing heh.

Current Mood: grumpy

If we shadows have offended,
Think but this, and all is mended,
That you have but slumber'd here While these visions did appear.
And this weak and idle theme, No more yielding but a dream,
Gentles, do not reprehend: if you pardon, we will mend:
And, as I am an honest Puck,
If we have unearned luck Now to 'scape the serpent's tongue,
We will make amends ere long;
Else the Puck a liar call;
So, good night unto you all.
Give me your hands, if we be friends,
And Robin shall restore amends.

This is where the phrase came from

Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Crimeny its 3am and im awake. I think i shouldnt of taken that 3 hour nap i just cant seem to sleep. Im laying in bed with the booger between me and k and everytime i start to drift off i get kicked. Shes a restless sleeper. Lets see nothing much going on. Been a CRAZY fucking 3 weeks at work. the past 3 mondays have sucked. between someone getting extra holes to gassing someone and ending up wearing gas to staff asault and AGAIN wearing so much gas i actually had to scrape it off me. Sheesh but i was able for the most part to handle everything on my own. Coodos to me i suppose. Not much else happening. k meet someone who ended up not being interested. His loss i say. shes kinda down and i feel bad cause there really is nothing i can do. I think this is the part of an open marrige taht is the hardest for me. somone hurts my wife or makes her feel bad and there is nothing i can do about it. that sucks for me cause i hate when shes down. Ive been talking to someone i met off collarme. just trading messages and stuff. Seems interesting enough to meet up with sometime. I dont know what im lookin for. Maybe im not looking for anything. I dont know. ive been blah lately and i dont know why. I think im worn out from work. im taking monday and tuesday off but i dont really plan on doing anything other then vegitate. Ive not had 4 days off in a row since i was sick last August. Oh well hope nothing happens that i get called in for. That would suck. Hmmmm there is really nothing else i can think of to rant. I wish icould goto sleepbut im seriously not tired. I dont know whats wrong. Myabe my brain is broken or something heheh. Ahh well guess ill go WoW it up a bit get my druid going. Peace out

Current Mood: cranky
Current Music: silence

Sheesh ive come to realize through self inspection and a little help from an outside source...love ya....that im passive aggressive. I think that is actually a problem with me sometimes. Im too laid back. Got told that at work too.Not in so many words but i was told that i need to get aggressive with the stg guys. I guess i need to. Course the next step is trying to figure out how to get aggressive. Blah today was just a cluster. I guess im just tired and frustrated at trying to get stuff done but not doing it. I need to step up get more aggressive i need to get these guys who should of been of the yard awile ago off the f'n yard. Ok so im gonna freaken step up and get aggressive...just gotta figure out how...sheesh if i was anymore laid back id be asleep...BLAH i TELL YOU BLAH!!!!

Well sheesh lots of this that and the other since i last posted. Lets see i started talking online with a sub from Mesa. Was going fine till one night she was acting odd i asked what was wrong she said she dosnt think i am being totally honest. Ok i told her iw as married i told her i had a kid and i told her that my family is my priority..WTF?!?! Ya woul think if i wasnt being honest those would be the first things i dont talk about..sheesh. So she ends up telling me that we wouldnt work out. **rolls his eyes** some people just cant handle truth and they feel better thinking they are being lied to. Oh well. My Sgt is leaving on March 9th his last day. they dont know who is going to be his replacement. This sucks cause im by myself and i just really don tknow how to go about getting orignized. I think next week is a admin week getting things set up to be more efficant. Gotta get off my butt and get out on that yard and start hitting houses and the like. Oh well this is where i need to step up and prove that im the guy for the job. Whoever gets put back there will be trained by me..thats kinda neat, unless they have prior experiance. Sheehs i really dont know what else to babble about. Other then those two things life is as groovey asi can want it. k and the monster are doing good. I enjoy my time with them more every day. cant ask for a better wife...as for the kid...well shes my kid that should tell ya something..and she has red hair...and the Irish temper that goes with.....batten down the hatches...

Well i did fuck up. I might be put under investigation and it could go from anywhere to time off to being fired. People think at worst ill get maybe ad ay or two off....not to bad i guess...still sucks having fucked up. On a good note got the new puter and its FRICKEN AWESOME.....all i got to say is 21 inch flat panel wide screen monitor.....drooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool. Chow

Sheesh cant think of anything to write but i figured i shoudl write something.


Something



there that should be good till i figure something out...hah hah. OK so that was a bad joke but if ya know ya know those are about the only ones that ive got. Soooo lets see. I have really nothing that exciting going on inthe world. doing security for the SWLC this coming weekend...should be fun i suppose. I need to get active of course those of you who read this journal...all one of ya..Hi babycakes. Know that i put that in about everyone of my journals lol. At anyrate...im sure ill get involved i just dont like goign to things by myself. Heh maybe if i ever find a subbie/slave i need to make sure she is very out going and sociable that way she can do all the talking and meeting people. heheh ok maybe not. Blah blah blah my mind dosnt seem to want to work. Should be an interesting week in work lots to do already it seems. Went to the Polar express thing in Williams. Was cool i really enjoyed it and the monster loved riding on the train.Heheh she didnt really know what to make of Santa but she loves her bell heh. Gonna have to do that every year though not in january. Fricken i HATE driving in snow....on the highway..i live in phoenix for a f'n reason heh. Though it was funny watching the monster in the snow for the first time..she didnt want to get back into the car she was having fun. Hmmmm thats about it. K's mom is in town till next monday. Other then that i cant think of anything. OOO there is a gang conference in April that i am gonna go to. Im looking forward to that. Thats about all i can think of and i cant think no more.....blah

Current Mood: cheerful

Well now lets see. 2007 crazy stuff a whole nother year coming at us over the horizon. Should be an interesting year. lets see ill start this in sections

Work: Should be interesting. My mentor/Sgt is leaving and ill be "the man " as he put it. Whoever they put in there wont have the experiance i do so ill be training officer. So regardless of the Sgt ill be more or less the man in charge. Which is kinda scary. Now thats all dependant on if they put a Sgt who i can work with back there or they put someone whos gonna hold the fact they are a Sgt above the fact that i have the experiance. Been there done that. And i wont last that long in SSU if i have to do it again. Its counter productive to what im trying to do. Also it was crazy yesterday i was in the safeway parking lot and a big ole white suberban stopped honked its horn and a dude got out and was like HEY ...HEY YOU REMEBER ME??? He was talking to me For a brief monent i was wondering if this was gonna go bad and cursing myself for being to lazy to take my gun with me like i always say i am going to. Anyway turns out it was someone that thought i was a fair cop to qoute. Gave me a hand shake and a hug we talked for about his life in the 3 years he been out for about 10 minutes and went our ways. Was a brief moment of oh shit though cause thats one of the guys i was chasing for dealing drugs on my unit way back in the day. Sheesh.


Everything other then work. Well lets see k had a nice lil play date type thing on Saturday and she enjoyed herself. Im glad she did she deserves to have some fun. Lets see went to the TNG new years part last night. I enjoyed myself..but it showed that i knew very few people. I just need to get out more and become active. I think i need to do that...get out of this anti social thingy. Who knows who i can meet. I guess i need to become more involved. Thats the thought of the day. Ill write down some resolutions...realistic ones i believe and strive to keep.


1 Get in shape
2 Get out more become more involved
3 Gain more training at work


thats all i can think of...ive got all month to find em and set em stone so to speak...yes i give myself a month cause im lazy heh ooo that should be one....eh next time...see what i mean? Hope everyone enjoyed their new years

Current Location: home
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Mick Mouse Club house

Ok so i was making a joke the other day about theme songs. I was talking to k about how Pain is a good BDSM song. Well i heard my song the other day. The song is Whispers in the Dark. This is the type of Dom i am...or i think i am and want to be. I dont know if others will make sense of it but it strikes true with me...and i suppose thats all that matters...read..see if you understand...

Whispers in the Dark

Despite the lies that you're making
Your love is mine for the taking
My love is
Just waiting
To turn your tears to roses

I will be the one that's gonna hold you
I will be the one that you run to
My love is
A burning, consuming fire

[Chorus:]
No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars
Hear my whispers in the dark
No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes you know I'm never far
Hear my whispers in the dark

You feel so lonely and ragged
You lay here broken and naked
My love is
Just waiting
To clothe you in crimson roses

I will be the one that's gonna find you
I will be the one that's gonna guide you
My love is
A burning, consuming fire


Kick ass stuff huh? Works for me

Current Location: A Zen place
Current Music: Lil Einstiens

Welll merry Xmas and Bah humbug....and all that other stuff. Well my Xmas shopping for k is done...i got her.......not gonna say cause i know she reads this...HAHAHAHAHA im mean. Sooooo k has gotteninterested in Gor. We just bought the first 17 books off ebay for a decent price. Ive read one or two before but that was before i was into the lifestyle. Its an interesting realm so to speak. Ill read all the ones we get and see where i stand when im done who knows maybe ill see if i cant get into gor. I know k wants too she loves the whole slave thing. Ive told her she is a good slave she just kept holding herself back. Unfortunatly our relationship is on a levle we have problems dealing with each other on that level I love her too much to cause her pain. Now i wouldnt trade what she and i have for the world....no matter what the offer. We are in the type of relationship where we both allow the other freedom to explore that type of thing...al in all its pretty damn good deal. Even if we werent in THAT type of relationship...i couldnt ask for anything better then my wife and daughter. Ive actually exchanged more then 2 msg's with someone on collarme...though in the last they said they dont think we would fit...oh well...at least its getting better...at least ive gotten past 2 msg's heh.Maybe ill hang around bondage IRC find someone to bother there for a bit.Or maybe ill just bury my head in the sand and hum pirate songs ehhehe. Hmmm im in limbo waiting to find out who my new Sgt is. Other then that i need to find a new hobby soemthing to keep me active im gonna save up for a mountain bike...my knees are getting older running might not be so good till i strengthen em up some. Well thats about all i can think of so im gonna stop thinking...my head is hurting heh.

Current Location: Hiding under the couch with Synclair
Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: The wiggels